Published on November 21, 2004 By godsjewl In Life Journals
what can i say, i am devistated.


Comments
on Nov 21, 2004
Awww hunny, I wish there was something I could say to make it all better. Chin up chuck. *hugz*
on Nov 21, 2004
i guess i was foolish to think i could hang on to the past. or to think that i would end up with my first bf after 15 yrs of loving him - my heart is just broken
on Nov 21, 2004
Not foolish, love is never foolish. I'm here to listen if you need to talk. Fifteen years is a long time, my heart goes out to you honey.
on Nov 21, 2004
If you love him set him free, if he comes back it was meant to be.
on Nov 25, 2004
All things happen for a reason Ramona, and though I know you're sad right now, you and I both know that you'll bounce back from this better and stronger than before (Oh, and for others that may read this, no I am not her junior high sweetheart [Just wanted to clear that up so that I wouldn't need to slip on a flame-retardant suit!]...I'm someone else from her past). You know I wish you all the best in your life. I always have, and I always will.

Mark
on Nov 25, 2004
I feel your pain Try and write about how you feeling right now. Letting everything out can help and clear your mind. It's hard but i'm sure with time you'll feel better...

on Nov 28, 2004
I'm over it I'm fine - I just find myself focusing on work a lot more now
on Nov 28, 2004
I think the words of this song pretty much sum up my feelings:

"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
on Nov 29, 2004
.... I feel for you GodsJewl